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Its happening

It’s really happening within few hours..
My one and only last one.
It’s a mixture of feelings I’m having altogether.
Not knowing what to expect next
But I’m proud it has thus far been a fun journey

Times like this..

it feels different somehow..
Is it how this suppose to be?
Is this how I’m suppose to feel?

I missed those days..
When things were much simpler,
Less expectations,
Less doubts, less questions, more trust,
And more….

Have I changed or have things gone the other way round?

Sighs..

Am I the only one having doubts?
Worries is filling up my nerves
I wished it will go away
Away to a place where it will never find me
Pls..
Js go away..

Sometimes

Sometimes we :)
To hide :(
Sometimes we :D
To hide :’(

comfortable

I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.

Can’t remember, what went wrong last September
Though I’m sure that you’d remind me, if you had to

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl i’m still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she’s gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives

She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty

Life of the party
and she swears that she’s artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she’s perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say

She thinks I can’t see the smile that she’s fakin’
and poses for pictures that aren’t being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she’s perfect, so flawless
I’m not impressed, I want you back.

Hate

Hate the fact it has to end this way.. When things can be solved the other way.. Why have I always have to be the one mending things back? Why me? Why? Don’t even get a chance to… All I want was getting back to the things were.. Am I asking a lot? The thought of closing my eyes is Js scaring me.. That I might loose it the nx day.. Hate. It.

Let it go?

We all go through disappointments, setbacks and things that we don’t understand. Maybe you prayed for a loved one, but they didn’t get well. Or maybe you worked hard for a promotion, but you didn’t get it. You stood in faith for a relationship, but it didn’t work out. One of the best things you can do is release it. Let it go. Don’t dwell on it anymore. If you go around wondering why things didn’t… work out, all that’s going to do is lead to bitterness, resentment and self-pity. Before long, you’ll be blaming others, blaming yourself, or even God. You may not have understood what happened. It may not have been fair. But when you release it, it’s an act of your faith. You’re saying, “God, I trust You. I know You’re in control. And even though it didn’t work out my way, You said, ‘All things are going to work together for my good.’ So I believe You still have something good in my future.”

There is power in letting go of the past and the frustration of trying to figure everything out. When you release your questions, you are saying, “God, You are in control. I trust You.” And when you put your hope in God, that’s when He can heal your heart and lead you forward into His path of blessing.

workout..

this is not exactly how I picture my day to end..

one after another..

and to the point, I’m on the verge of not giving a damn!

can I js not give a f*** and leave everything behind?

in need of a break

badly..

:(